Wednesday, April 27, 2011

i love you'll!


I have been whining for a while now. Complaining about how bad BBA sucks and how I have no clue what I am doing at NMIMS.

Nine months back I entered NMIMS with unexplainable excitement. The idea of being around people I didn’t know and travelling to a place I had never travelled before was super duper exciting for me. This feeling however descended exactly a week after me starting college. but today , a night before the last exam of the year(for almost everyone but me , since I have huge lot of KT’s to clear) I realize how much I have learnt and how much I have grown in the last nine months. I realize That its me and my issues and not the course , the college or the people. Its not a wrong decision I have made but it’s a wrong phase in life. And I am hoping this will pass.

This post is for the awesome and annoyingly lovable friends I have made at NMIMS. This is to tell you’ll how much I love you’ll and how much I am going to miss you’ll if I go away. you guys are such an important reason for me to want to stay back. I love each and everyone of you’ll. Thank you for being there.

nandini , jaieee ,Arsh , nehh , rohan , harsh, kani , keshav , vinny , sanam , ruchi , prii , amu , pranit , sani , prerit , fagun , saurabh , harshit , khushbu , jharna, tirup , amman , sumedha.

These nine months have had some of the most beautiful days of my life.

I love you’ll , ad infinitum.





p.s: i haven't read and rechecked this post after writing it. i am just going to publish it because its as natural as i can get. and its straight from my heart. so pardon the grammatical and other silly errors.


Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Yes you are COOL! Yes you are a WanaaBe!


Calling your sister sis and brother bro.

Lol ‘ing at everything and anything.

Using the "cool" SMS language while taking notes.

Not knowing the difference between whom and who and writing a blog.

Wearing tight fitting clothes that go totally against your figure.

Straightening your hair in order to leave them open even in scorching heat.

Reading twilight, sex and the city and Eric Segal's love story and calling yourself a bibliophile.

Listening to English music for the sake of listening to English music and trying to sound cool just because you know the names akon and Enrique and “Justin bieber”.

Calling your girl friends biatch and guy friends dude.

Going to carters, bandstand, marine drive and juhu beach after bunking college.

Making a face when someone speaks about hold Hindi cinema or regional cinema without understanding even the basics of film making.

Clicking pictures looking into the mirror with your “BB” or china version of I phone.

Being a part of the BB gang and being proud about it as if you own RIM.

Having a boy friend because it’s such an “in” thing.

Wearing make up to college.

Playing the guitar because girls love guys who play an instrument.

Belly dancing because Oh-Katrina-did-it.

Uploading gothic pictures of people cutting their wrists and writing love with their blood as your display pictures post break up

Forwarding tacky messages about Love and relationships and talking as if you have had the worst break up in the history of human existence.

Abusing your ex’s just because things did not work out between you’ll after 5 years of being miserable.

Gossiping and spreading rumors about a third person because it makes you sound “well-informed”.

Clicking random pictures of the sky, trees and streets and posing as a photographer.

pretending to support a cause when you dont really have any clue about it.

Drinking and smoking and then trying to make it sound cool.


Life is about simple things. Everything you do for someone else takes away some part of you from you. Do things because it makes you feel awesome and not because when you do it you are considered awesome by people who themselves have major insecurity issues. All of us have times when we get into the league of wannabes but realizing it and doing what Actually brings a smile on your face is what makes you different. Every person has the ability to stand out if that person only follows their heart and stays natural.

It is absolutely normal to love old Hindi music and cliché films and wear cotton kurta’s. It is absolutely normal to wear shorts and skirts if you are wearing it with an intention of being comfortable. It absolutely normal to have a Nokia or Sony Ericsson phone with an idea card if it works for you. Just because you have the money to buy a DSLR or even a normal digital camera for that matter stop annoying people buy clicking pictures of random things and posting it on facebook.Supporting a cause is not about wearing "Being Human" t-shirts, its more. A lot lot more.

It’s okay if you’re single and happy than being committed and miserable. All of us go through heart breaks and it’s not a public issue. Respect the love you shared with someone and move on with dignity. Let it be a happy memory for you and the other person.

Drinking and smoking and going to prive every other week does not for the sake of god make you the coolest and most wanted person in this world. Social drinking and smoking if it is okay for you is fine but doing it to fit in just makes you like the other zillions of people out there living their life and yelling out loud “Yes we Are WanaaBes”

Monday, April 25, 2011

because i love the way you hold my hand!


This life don’t last forever

So tell me what we’re waiting for

We’re Better off being together

Than being miserable alone


Cause I’ve been there before

And you’ve been there before
But together we can be alright.
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold
We hold each other till we see the sunlight


Hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do ,All I can.
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hold, hold my hand.


The nights are getting darker
And there’s no peace inside
So why make our lives harder
By fighting love, tonight.


Cause I’ve been there before
And you’ve been there before
But together we can be alright
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold

We hold each other till we see the sunlight


So if you just hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do ,All I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hold, hold my hand.


I can tell you’re tired of being lonely
Take my hand don’t let go baby hold me
Come to me and let me be your one and only
So I can make it alright til’ the morning

I can tell you’re tired of being lonely
Take my hand don’t let go baby hold me
Come to me and let me be your one and only
So I can make it alright til’ the morning


Hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do,All I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hold, hold my hand.


Hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do,All I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hold, hold my hand.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Easter.. :D


As kids easter used to be one of the most favorite sundays for my brother and me. as both of us grabbed our marzipan and chocolate eggs! so this year i decided to go shopping for eggs myself and be the egg bunny and suprise my brother.
eeeeeeeee.. now i am really excited to dig into my fully loaded with chocolate egg.


P.s Happy Easter Everyone! :D
hope you guys are having a rather nice sunday.


*tuned into* sweet caroline

Come Back!

Dear Normal Life! Can You Hear Me?!! If you’re Listening, Can I Please Have You back?! :(

I was trying to write something sensible but I miss my blog too much. So I decided ill post random updates and work on my 5 super cool articles side by side. Nandini you were right I am freaking fickle minded. But Life is just too boring without writing and I have tons of exams to give for me to get time to write something dramatic and serious. So yeah I am blogging again. Whining again. Just not forgetting the promise I made to myself about writing something serious and worth reading!

You’ll be seeing a lot of me complaining for some time now. I am perpetually in a mess these days. Got loads to do and have no clue where it is going to lead me. I have no patience to wait and watch. So yeah wailing helps!

Eeeeeeee... this feels good..!!

*tuned into* hold my hand - Michael Jackson


Thursday, April 14, 2011

eeeeee...couldn't resist!


i cant stop humming this song since i saw it while joblessly surfing through channels on the T.V. today!

i just love , loved ,will always love Sharukh. *blush blush blush*
Madhuri is awesomeeee for me like even before i was born i guess.
and DIL TOH PAGAL HAI is my favorite movie , its perfect for me.so it had to find a place on my blog.

hope you guys are doing well.. should be back soon.
love!

*tuned into* chand ne kuch kahan :P


Friday, April 1, 2011

goodbye for a while!


Sometimes for a long time in your life you have a feeling that you are good and much better than most people around you and a lot of people around you help you believe it too. You keep telling yourself that you are going good and you are going to become better and no one is still there to give you any kind of competition.

When one day you get up in the morning and realize that there was someone before you doing what you were doing in a much better way. It’s pretty filmy after that. You hear all sorts of sounds: glass shattering, heart breaking, paper tearing, etc. (I couldn’t get anymore "creative" so etc. works)

When I entered the "blogosphere" (I like how it sounds) I was an apprentice in many ways. Though I went to a convent and read a lot even as a kid, I was not really good with usage of the "big words”. I am more like a dictionary with meanings of words but no explanation of how and where to use them. Around me I was one of the best. I thought that I am pretty good for an 18 year old. And I started my blog 10 months back with lots of enthusiasm and support.

But recently I started reading other blogs. Blogs of people I don’t know, know-but-don’t-talk-to, know-but-i-dont-know-how, who-talk-about-love-like-its-the-only-thing-important-in-this-world (these blogs are a fun read; they make me feel so much better).After all the reading I came to a conclusion that yeah I am still better than many out there "but" there are so many better writers of my age who write so many more meaningful and sensible things than what my blog has ever witnessed.

When I read their posts I felt like my blog is more like a personal dairy when I rant about my life, my relationships, my not so interesting thoughts.Seriously who even cares? Who even cares what I want, what are the little things that make me happy? Who even cares about what kind of a person I am?!

A friend of mine the other day said in a matter of fact casual way that the theme of my blog is ME! That almost offended me. The theme of my blog is not supposed to be me. It’s supposed to be more, a lot more.

So I got up this morning and re-read my blog and I realized, "oh my god this blog is a mess."

I did not start writing with an intention of being mediocre blogger who talks crap on her blog. It was meant to make people think. And I have clearly not done a lot with that.

So I thought and thought harder and decided to stop writing for a while. I am going to stop blogging till I come up with at least 5 meaningful posts about things that need to be given actual attention rather than my messed up career and love life.

This decision has made me both sad and happy. Sad because I am really going to miss my blog and happy because I know this decision is going to help me do something really creative and sensible.

I don’t know how long this is going to take and when I am going to be back, so for whoever really cares - miss me!

Love! ,