She hogged on her Thali like the world would end the minute she paused or stopped. There was so much to devour .The room was well lit and he sat across the table looking at her amused as she ordered for more basundi. He had been begging her to come with him to this particular restaurant from forever. And she had tried really hard to keep him away. She loathed this cuisine. But this was amazing food. She felt untroubled and radiant inside and thought to herself that today was the best food she had eaten in her life. She chocked a little and complained about the amount she had eaten. He grinned further. Everything felt perfect and flawless.
The waiter asked them if they needed anything else and he looked at her teasingly. She laughed and said no…and with this ended their ‘Last Dinner’!!!!
She had forgotten all about the day. Their fight. The Truth. But as he paid the bill, reality hit like a lightning bolt. They were over!!!
Her world was just about to change. Her happiness was going to have to find a new definition.
It had been a long day. She wished now she had slept over it than have met him. They wouldn’t fight and there wouldn’t be a reason to start the ball rolling. There wouldn’t have been the discussion and he wouldn’t have decided to leave.
She had told him she would understand. But how could she? How could she possibly live without him? Live without talking to him? They had been together for too long. They had shared a little too much. He had given her too much for her to forget and move on!
There would be no arguments over difference in opinions. There would be no smiles of agreement. There would be no one to share dreams with. There would be no one to try new food joints with. There would be no one to complete her sentences. There would be no one hence to know what she wants without telling.
As he left her home and hugged her one last time, she wished she dint have to leave him. Did he have to go right now? It was never meant to stay. But what if it did? What if they gave it another chance? What if it worked? What if they fought for it? Should she talk to him? Where were the answers? Why was it so difficult?
She turned around to find the answers and she knew she had to talk to him and stop him.
But she couldn’t! She didn’t.
She just looked at him one last time and turned her face as a tear rolled down her cheek and she shut her eyes wishing that he got everything he deserves and much more. And she wished that when he did, he'd come back to her and love her like no one ever did and no one ever could apart from him.
*tuned into* heartbreak warfare.